Friday, November 12, 2010

The bottle of stories

I have stories that I have bottled in my heart for so long but I did not say it. Today I wanted to share what I have been through these 2 years plus at my school. I know that people who wants to do big things should not talk about people related topics but things have come to be so irreversible.

New to the school
There is a girl who I admired her when I just came to know her. She looked friendly and social-able. When I came to know that she was in my group, I was elated. However, things had not been going smoothly, she is not like how I see her.

Whenever I do stuffs that are not to her expectations, she would keep blaming me. I was wondering if you are so unhappy, why don't you do it yourself. An addition to that, she was missing for a few occasions when she was doing our project. When the deadline was near, we had to rush like mad as compared to other groups.

Second Year
However, her attitude changed when she was in second year. I should say change for the better. She was very enthusiastic in her work but when she comes to group work, the only thing that was similar is she was as bossy as before and kept ordering me to do this and that. We are all classmates, is it not suppose to be trusting each other in a team and get this work done? The outcome was "I want this so do it for me." Third year is a year I could finally choose my group members, so I never felt so happy in my school life before. I finally have to choice not to group with her. It was heaven.

Birthday Party
Last year, I invited her to my birthday party. She asked me whether she could bring some of her friends with her. I thought it would be fine so I agreed. She brought her friends along and was trying to show her friends off to everyone. Apparently, everyone ignored her. One of my friend who totally did not know who she was told me that when I was not around, she was trying to put me down and she did not know what that girl was trying to do. From my perceptive, she was trying to ruin my party but failed to do so.

A quarrel that does not involve me
Towards the end of our year 2, I thought everything would come to an end. It seems that this story is never ending. My class had a group of people who was quarreling for a competition project but it does not involve me. She had a quarrel with her best friend but it seems not amendable so she went to the submission box, took the file that belongs to her best friend and put it on my table. The second day, one of our classmate found her file on my table and helped her hand it up. Initially, everyone thought that it would not be graded, in the end it was graded. Her best friend gave me a call and asked me regarding this situation. Luckily, that day I went home and had a witness with me or else this will drag forever.

The day before
The day before, I heard my name repeatedly came out from a certain person. Obviously they were gossiping about me. Actually all this while I knew that they were gossiping about me but I pretended that I did not know. Ignorance does not mean stupidity.

Initially I just wanted to hint the person who was gossiping about me and just let this situation give it a rest. I went up to the person and called his name. He pretended to ignore me until I called him the third time. That was the time I was a little pissed off. I said "你说别人的坏话太大声了“ (The volume of you speaking ill of someone is too loud). He actually replied me "What? Which one?" I got angry but I did not want to scold him so I left the class.

When I got home, I felt kind of guilty to said that sentence to him or whether I had heard wrongly or not. It ever crossed my mind whether to apologize to him too. I called my friend and was talking about this matter. We came out a conclusion that we would find out the truth first, and if I have done wrongly, I am willing to apologize. The second day, the group that he was in was mocking openly in front of me. At the same time, I felt my stupidity. Why should I even think of wanting to apologize to him. The one who was laughing extremely loud was that girl I mentioned before. I understand that she wanted to get her revenge.

At the same time, I felt that everyone in the class except for one of my friend has misunderstood me. It seems that after I left the classroom that they were gossiping even louder. I was so depressed. During my journey to head home, my friend was trying to cheer me up. I came to realize that she is my true friend.